Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery

[Jhon Dolton]

I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining samples of the teachings of a course in miracles acim, and fo initially in a long while, I don't feel alone.

Part of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be this for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I'm about to fairly share wasn't yet clear at that time; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.

That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have let you see inside. Don't are interested troubling the mind, won't you allow it to be?” This confused me as I possibly could not consider whatever I had said that I felt regret for.

Eventually, the phrase, “don't are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I had in visiting the Monastery was that I'd somehow interfere having its residents'peace of mind, by just my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored a lot of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his true videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.

You will find other items that happened that felt important, but I can't consider them right now.